REMINISCING

By Chubfade

The first thing I did when I arrived in your city was to look for my guy. Not exactly you, but someone who I think can fulfill my needs.

And then I came across you (you know what site). We exchanged numbers and agreed to meet at that place. It instantly became one of my most favorite spots in your city I still don’t know why until now.

I recall everything like it only happened yesterday. I arrived first, and waited for you for a couple of minutes. I ordered coffee while waiting, and I saw a familiar face. It was my boss, and we chatted for a while. She went back to her place, and still there was no trace of you. I texted what you were wearing, and you said it was an orange shirt.

I finished up my coffee and still there was no trace of you. I was dismayed, and texted someone else to see me at that place. He agreed, and I was glad. After a while, you texted, that you’d be here in ten minutes. I didn’t believe you. My friend was on his way, and was pretty excited too.

And then I saw a chinky-eyed guy in an orange shirt, and you texted you were here. I wanted to walk out and go somewhere else, because I really hate it when I wait for someone. But then I didn’t do that, because I wanted to know the person in front of me. And so I texted my friend to go home. He was sad, of course, but I’d rather see him some other time than leave you and let go of the chance to know you.

Over two bottles of beer we talked. I found you nice, despite the fact that you lied about your age. I hoped that you felt the same. I didn’t know, maybe because I didn’t tell you my feelings either.

I stood up to go, you asked me where I was going. I said that I was going back to my hotel room, and asked you if you would like to come with me. Without hesitation you said yes, and we hailed a cab.

You held my hand inside the cab, and I got excited of what would happen through the night. I knew I was prepared, I wasn’t sure if you were.

We arrived at the hotel, and I asked you to go ahead of me. You were so nice that you obeyed. And so there you waited at the third floor. I walked ahead and you followed. I went in the room, you were close behind. As I enter the room I offered you my wine. You said it was nice, I liked it too.

And everything went smoothly. I showered, you followed. You caressed my back as you gently kissed my ears. You were whispering something to me but I didn’t try to understand it as I was deeply into whatever you were doing to me. You taught me how to kiss more passionately and I appreciate you for that. And we made love through the night wishing that morning would come later than usual.

But the night did end, but for that instance at least. We saw each other after that night and every time was as wonderful as the first. But then again, we both knew that nothing lasts forever… especially the good things.

I had to leave, and you bid farewell to me. We did not see each other that day and I was sad. I wished I was able to rebook my flight to be able to spend more time with you but it was too late.

I left your city, and surely hoped I could come back. I like you, I told you that. I knew you didn’t believe me yet, and I understood. Nobody’s perfect, and I’m no exception. I like you, but there were a lot of things I hadn’t told you about.

Will you forgive me if you came to know everything? I know you will, and I feel more guilty just thinking about it… guilty because you are such a wonderful person that I feel like I don’t deserve forgiveness, at all. But I do thank you. I’m thankful I met you, and I’m thankful that you are more open and vocal you said those words to my face. I didn’t have the courage to that.

I thank you for the wonderful times, you will always be remembered, friend.